April 28, 2016

Simple Prayer

I can't.
so I pray
then, I can

I don't have the strength.
so I pray
then, I can have the strength

I can't pray.
so I pray

I, at times, feel unworthy
--just as unworthy as to take this breath, this very air I breathe.
so I pray
then, I feel it's worth it to live
to keep on moving

I have anxious thoughts.
so I pray
then, my mind is filled with
peace--and there's no greater benefit indeed
than to stay calm in all things, no matter what

I am selfish.
so I pray
then, they
become more important for me

I have no more words.
so I pray
even without words

I can never say that I pray too much.
so I pray
then, I still have little, small, simple prayer to pray

And when the hourglass has run out

And when the hourglass has run out, the hourglass of temporality, when the noise of secular life has grown silent and its restless or ineffectual activism has come to an end, when everything around you is still, as it is in eternity, then eternity asks you and every individual in these millions and millions about only one thing: whether you have lived in despair or not.

~ Søren Kierkegaard


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